Last 2nd Holiday

Now was my last 2nd sem break...
it was my lifeless holiday?
i m feeling my heart was inanity...deep one...;(

2 days i din find him, and finally he said he very miss me, til he cried...
he steadfast and said: last time i already told you i will not get back to you until i confirm i really love you...
i answered: when the day you confirm you love me, i may not with you anymore
he said: sorry my wawah, im confuse now, very sad

kien sien, you may never know am also confusing right now...
i also don't know whether i still wan love you...
i lose confidence to love you anymore...
really...although i very pain to lose you, but now i am learning to grow up...
i cant imagine when the day you say- you love me(perhaps it may impossible)
but i really don't know what to answer you anymore...
i only dare to imagine that you say you don't love me...
perhaps, i was learning now, and try to not get deep hurt from you anymore...
i hope i can be more chicly...i think i can do it...
but in other way round, i also i can be weak, because its too tired to be strong...
i really hope snuggle up to your huge...if can...

kien sien, in this moment, i still is your wawah...
when i will not?
i miss you in max...
now i learned, if you really cant give me love, cant give me what i wan, then we better be friend?
maybe it was a good way to both of us.....

I Lose

It's a late night and when i should fighting with my text book
now, i cant. every moment i was thinking of him.
the time spending on him is much than i'm looking my book...

today i talked to James, and i just realized that,
actually he really not really love me
maybe just he need a person when the time we started
just recalled back memories with our bad moment
he treat me really not as that good in fact
and me, how silly am still love him
Love is blind, we cant really sense anything when we are playing the role of love
no doubt, he is a good guy for himself, personally, but perhaps, not me

the time of waiting him, the time of discover more of him
my mind was asking me, will the next person better than?
when a person touched 'Love' you would like to find another love to instead your hurt
as me right now, i touched love...
i lose him, so i expect to get love from another guy
no for any reason, just to quench on dry of love...

but still, i love him...chong kien sien

It Was Ended

It has been 1 week broken up our relationship...
It never be 1 year yet how silly i thought we can be together more than 1 year..

even till now i still don't know what is the real reason we wanna breakup...
it's really make me cried till tired at all..
at first i feel strange between us, but i really cant without you
i do not want to breakup with you and try to retrieve back our relationship
unfortunately i fail to did and refuse from you...
how can you still love me but you chosen to abandoned our love...
sometime your reason is i too love you,
sometime your reason is you not so love me...
i really don't understand the main reason to make us breakup...
and i even don't understand how can you not begrudge our love...
if you love me why you want to leave me?!
my tear cant even help me to beg you stay with me...

Now, i was better than few days ago...
i would like to become optimistic after all...
i become strong and stronger...
It's me, wawah in everyone heart...
i hope i will still waiting you until you come back...
but hope that you will be the same,
achieve you promise..
Chong Kien Sien, I love you and i willing to wait you..

NOVEMBER

It was a new month today!
last 2 month of 2010*

i like November!
but it was announcing that i'm going bankrupt..
haha~because most of my friends born in this month!!
haha~some very close friends also born in this month..cant skip anyway..:p
the most i like is my birthday on 24th November o..
hehe..very happy day for me..
i like my birthday cause i can gather my best lovely friends..
and my family too~

while..this year i am stepping 21s..
Opps..people always say old..
however, in my mind, i disagreed it!
21s is going between youthful and mature year..
i like mature but i still keep youth in anyway..
haha~!! >o<

arsshhh...this year maybe different with previous year?
hehe..because i have my love one beside me..
don't know what he will give..but i really hope he beside me..:p
hmm..thought to have any party before..but now..
have no idea on it..:[

k la..lazy to update di..going sign out now..hehe!!^^

I MISS HIM IN MAX

i do say that i really miss him maximum!
he in Indonesia now..
worrying him..less contact..
but i'll be independent..
stay here wont be naughty..
:) :)) :)))
miss you max!!

say hallo again!

sigh..this blog was abandoned by me quite a long time..
i should apology to my lovely blog..
so useless and irresponsibility wawah..:p
but my life seem as working life although im living in college life right now..
1st sem became my past tense..and 2nd sem is progressing now..
everything alright..nothing much special to record..

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well..there were 2 trips i went through during last 2weeks..
one trip visited Pangkor again with wen,mimi,howie and sheng min...
going through to bit by bit of the trip..
it was a fresh trip and feeling traveling with them..
but i felt bored to going pongkor di..
haha~why?cause it was a small island..
we can visit it within as longer as 4hours..
thought that i was living there at least 3 months time..XD
but it was so badly and dumbbiii in this trip..
cause i injured 2 times..one cos playing card game get hurt by howie..
another one hurt by leech..so dumb..:(


another trip is last week..
Cameron Highland..
with my buddies gang..
me,meikee,josh,jason,fuxin,shaangyih,kiawai,oh gor and his gf and kah yan..
honestly..de food is bad in this trip..
but its ok cos de best moment is to enjoying the time spent with them..
strawberry..yummy...corn...cherry tomatoes..yummy..
we celebrated meikee's birthday too..:D

hmm..shall stop here..cos i was starting lazy..:p
o ya..it became private blog..:)
i can write anything as i like..:p

★ = ♥

A S.W.E.E.T memory with him..^^
i say: here so bad..got no any star on the sky(pointing sky)
the moon appear a while then hide by wind again..:(
he says: here got no 'star'..but here got 'heart'(pointing his heart and mine)..
:) :D :D *wink*wink* hehe~

arshh..touched by him! :P
now..u are able to displace the one who drawn star on my hand..
although i wont forget him..cos he is who take care me in pangkor..
but dun worry..he wont displace u in my heart! :P
now..i try to not c star but c ur heart..
:P :) :) :D

MISTRESS

I dislike people as a mistress and then still say people is mistress with unashamed!!
i extremely oppose to be mistress or interpose to people love life!!
who knew me well also knew this right?!
so, when as my respected with lovely friends face it..
i would recommend NO! Don't! Try NOT! and i did it always!


actually i purposely posted it, is to vent out my dislike(with angry) in this morning!
the one who is mistress and make his 'bf' betrayed - shout very louder with no manner in this morning and say "someone (my friend) '包二奶'!!" X3times
and the 二奶 is pointing me!!

my reaction is staring her!!
and my heart was telling me that i dislike!
please la MISTRESS!!
YOU!! interpose people love life, the man betrayed his gf..
and then said he is your Mr right and would like to married with him!
when i heard this i felt vomit and disgusting!
you are absolutely 第三者！

before i am going end up this post..
i would wanna say..
why don't you behave yourself only pointing people!!
And i never ever do it as you!!

♥ A STORY WAS STARTING ♥

♥ A story was starting ♥

A memorable story was happening..
2 protagonists were not sure how the story could happened..
how the story in future..
how long the journey of this story..
Anyway* anything*

♥hope the story is attracting people, awesome and romantic ever..♥

♥ ENJOYING TO READING THIS ARTICLE ♥

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she’s scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don’t let her have the last word.

#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she’s important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

*it is truly from girls*
+sincerely posted for guys to take notes+

~josh..you must read it!! :p~

AHT1-H3 2010

AHT1-H3 2010

huh~ in fact, im feeling nerveless to living in H3 now..
if you ask me how you think about H3?
*shaking my head seriously*
it was a long story to describing this class..

this was a class with combining of H10,11,12,and 13 in Diploma..
H10-only 5 people..
however, it seems only 3 of us (wen,wawah and gm) hanging on together..
2 others? i would not want to comment anything..
as what your eyes are seeing then you know about it..

1,2,3,4...
lets counting how many group people in a class..
hmm..H12 one group..
H13 group always hanging on together..
H11 divided to 2 groups..H10 always divided to 2 groups..
hmm..so 5 or 6 groups in total in a class..:S

huh~how come? me and pwen really dislike the class like this..
it looks like everyone cant join together..:(
im feeling sad and mood-less to surviving in this class in certain time..
i wanna to know why we all cant join together and just only one group in class?
this class seems more pity than other 2 classes much!!
how even worse now im seeing is my classmates are joining to other class..
although i would not want divide between 3 classes..but..
*speechless*taciturnity*crestfallen*
so sad to knew the fact now!

we are planning to have dinner together in week 13..
sigh..now is week 13..but all seems like forgot this date..:(
nobody care about this..:( only few of us silly expecting it.. :S
arrssshhh!! :( :( :(
why we suggested have a dinner gathering?
because we hope we can improve and get know each others
(although we actually understand each others)
see my classmates now..
huh~ even we had dinner in this coming Thursday also wont have any big changes or different right? :'(

*shaking my head with thinking how to solve it*
any ideas?
haiz..wawah upset..

*end!*

♥ MY LOVELY BUDDIES ♥

♥ My lovely buddies again ♥

** Ann * Josh * Jason **
how long we didn't hang out with only 4 of us?
hehe~ (although that day included Stella)

when we are still in secondary school..
almost everyday also met each others..
same class same tuition same activities..
XD actually felt boring to each others everyday..
haha!!

however for now, we not met everyday..
and our friendship are changing..
sometime we too understand our habit already..
hehe..but i believe that our friendship will not be changed worse..
it only will be changed to more appreciate each others than before..
and i glad to have you guys be my best and forever friends!!
without you all..without wawah..:P :)

♥I Really LOVE Ann, Josh and Js♥

♥Monday♥
4 of us + Stella
we went to Sg.wang Green Box..
*wink*wink*wink*
1st time go k with Stella since we date long time ago..
finally we made it on Monday..:)

Ktime off..then we heading to Shopping time..
but actually we didn't shop much due we have to rush back to met my cousin..
date with them cause my cousin want pass invitation card for 3 of them..
wedding invitation!!
we went to "heaven cafe" take our dinner with gathering with my cousin..
discussing and chatting plans for wedding..
hope we could make it smoothly and wonderfully..
:) :) :)
thats all for that day..
Love my buddies so much!!♥

♥My lovely dude-Joe..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! sorry for cant joined the celebration..but as what i mention..my heart is there to wishing you all the best and BEST!! you are the best..and hope you and Daphne will sweet sweet forever!! glad to know you this brother!! my lovely buddy.. love ya!! :) ♥

♥CONTINUOUSLY ♥

♥feeling sweet again♥
when i heard he said accompany me go up to home after we hang out,
the reason is i scare the freaking weird thing happened from my housemate..
(my housemate met 'dirty' thing in the lift,after i heard my housemate said,
i feel extremely scare and it not only one weird thing happened here..)
however, after few days, i was throwing away and did not think much..
therefore i had forgotten it already..

so when he answered me cause i scare,
*silent again* i feel touched at that moment..
feel like want hug him and say thank you so much!!
♥his gently..i get it..♥
♥the time we spent together..♥
i get knew him much than before..
♥really wanna say thank you to him!!♥

♥ 3As - Amuse-Amaze-Ablast ♥

my senior's event..
3As> Amuse-Amaze-Ablast
Zest the charity spirit ♥
it was held on Wed and Thurs this week
the event set at our college field..
it was closing by yesterday!

i think all seniors were tiring and need to relaxing now..
although it seems some negative and positive in this event,
although the weather was unexpected yesterday..
it was ending and finished eventually..
Hope they all can take a breath..

♥ mine part ♥

wawah, peiwen and huiwen were take care a booth with seniors..
weiyang and Leo..
the booth is presenting 3 games..
actually it fun but due to our booth was setting too behind..
so..the sale was very low because most of people also din pass by there..
but it more worse than 1st day if compare to 2nd day..
we moved to same booth with one of their F&B stall in 2nd day..
they are selling sauted rice cake, takoyaki and perfectice..
same booth with them make me wont feel boring yet fun..:)
the sale of F&B much better than 1st day due the location..
started from beginning until the end also non-stop selling..
**clap**clap** you guys have done a job!!
Congratz them! :) :)
feel happy and nice to know them! :) hehe~♥

Amuse-Amaze-Ablast!!
great job!! :) :D
L.O.V.E ♥

♥RESPITE ♥ AGAIN ♥

Finally! all stress was gone right now..
but it just respite and it will come back very soon (after 2 weeks)
i should be responsible on it without complaint cause this is my decision..
so i have to try my best to do it well..=)
well, what i should do now is enjoying..
feel excited right now actually,
cause all the assignments & presentations cease!
yuhooo~ happy!! clap**clap**


but, exam is coming soon! :(
i told myself do not put it on my mind,
i need to allow myself relax at least a week
cause last 2 weeks really felt like going crazy!
* S.T.R.E.S.S*
i hate you! :S


wahaha..sigh..now am free to blogging..
hehe =D *smirk*
♥ freedom now ♥
if a beach in front of me now,
affirm i will dance will shout like crazy! XD


as what u are feeling and seeing now..
i 'painted' my house and change some small design..
but overall almost remain same.. :)
~sky blue~ feeling warm rite? hehe :)
say good bye to purple house since i used it above 6 months..
haha~ although i like purple but bored with it few weeks ago..
now it change to ~sky blue~ :)
try to adapting this color in my house..
:P used to the previous one..haha~

sigh..i free to blogging..
no worries..no doubt..
my house will not be abandoned by me..
cause i love here so muzzzZ
i will try to update constantly..
XD :) enjoying..exciting..
hope everyday is different for me..
**growing**
♥wink**wink**wink♥



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*Again*
i admit that i really out sense of secure,
so i would think too much and stand in negative..
but since that day i was growing and understanding that,
i realized that everything actually is not so difficult for me..
i can do it and i did..

but, what i think in negative is just am thinking too much!
so, i like what we have now..
and i have learned to be patient..:)
recently feel sweet from him..
although it really just a little thing n nothing he did..:P
but feel thankful he is always beside me..
how it was the feeling i just escape it cause even myself also don't know..

in fact, he really not my cup of tea..:P
my cup of tea(dream man)should have big eyes, handsome,(:P), man, brave, able to lead me, romantic, and etc..
whereas he is not..:P
he really different from that, even myself also don't know why is he..
hehe..*smirk* :P
so this time, i just let it as fate..never want to think too much of our future..
what we have now..just let it be..
yes, last time i always think too much with others..
but he is different..i dun wanna think about our future..
sometime i tell and force myself..NO..yes, i did.. :)


yesterday..Opps! i never thought that he will read my blog..
since he said lose it..
what out of my expecting is he had read it yesterday..
*silently* once he told me he suddenly remember my blog name,
Oh my! cant..please..i really dun wan he read what i had wrote here..(it was in my mind)
But, its too late cause i shut ed down my laptop..and he is reading it..:( :S
i cant evade what i had wrote..
but i could not want him change for me or do something for me because he had read here..
it will lose meaning..so..everything just let it be..

hmm..try to stop here..cause..erm..
okk.. o ya..*give up*
pain because of him..because i wanna learn guitar for him..
but just a song..but i really have to give up..
1st tried, only used half an hour my finger already pain..
although i should not easy to give up for everything..
but, i really lack of time to learn and my sifu-Guan Ming also have his love story to continue..
sorry..i useless..:(

*end*
another blogging will coming soon..