Last 2nd Holiday

Now was my last 2nd sem break...
it was my lifeless holiday?
i m feeling my heart was inanity...deep one...;(

2 days i din find him, and finally he said he very miss me, til he cried...
he steadfast and said: last time i already told you i will not get back to you until i confirm i really love you...
i answered: when the day you confirm you love me, i may not with you anymore
he said: sorry my wawah, im confuse now, very sad

kien sien, you may never know am also confusing right now...
i also don't know whether i still wan love you...
i lose confidence to love you anymore...
really...although i very pain to lose you, but now i am learning to grow up...
i cant imagine when the day you say- you love me(perhaps it may impossible)
but i really don't know what to answer you anymore...
i only dare to imagine that you say you don't love me...
perhaps, i was learning now, and try to not get deep hurt from you anymore...
i hope i can be more chicly...i think i can do it...
but in other way round, i also i can be weak, because its too tired to be strong...
i really hope snuggle up to your huge...if can...

kien sien, in this moment, i still is your wawah...
when i will not?
i miss you in max...
now i learned, if you really cant give me love, cant give me what i wan, then we better be friend?
maybe it was a good way to both of us.....