SHALL I?

what i am frustrating now is whether i go further study or work?

my great decision was influencing my future~

Is time to work and earn money right now?
or go 1 more year study only out for work?
it's really hard for me to make decision!

i Love college life,
i Love study,
i Love book.
But, it doesn't mean anything right?
huh~i H.A.T.E myself!!
why i always cant make a good decision by myself?
kept asking opinions from people.
O.O
Apa Saya Nak?

i thought i already make a good decision last time,
but now vacillate by my friends!
=.="' H.A.T.E!!

then called to my aunt and have above half hour chat,
i haven say anything then she already ask me study.
she said nowadays everywhere also can get diploma student,
if can then study more.
huh~keep repeating same topic!
she asked me don't think about degree cert in LiverPool 1st,
go for advance diploma, at least better than diploma..
she hope can heard my good news > continue study..
she asked me let her know my decision. =.="' lolx..
Anyway, muz thx her encourage and analyze with me.

NOW, what i wan? i afraid going alone!!it says honestly!
=P really afraid exam, and going study alone.
BUT, i damn like EVENT!! its quite challenge and funs!!

GOD, what i can do with it?
work? study? work? study?
if work then i will choose try work at wisma genting.
sounds good of this company..
can get a lot knowledge because the training is providing~

huh~no matter what, i also cant get a conclusion!!
USELESS wawahfish!!
='(

TOUCHED BY MY GIRLFRIENDS

Suppose update this early, but now only feeling free to post~

my life is full of love from my girlfriends..
Ann, Munyi, Pei Wen, Mimi, Puimun, Cheali and Meikee as well

this is from mimi's blog - ❤ Love is Unpredictable ❤
Mimi wrote this is specially distributed for me =)
all memories about me, wen with her in our 2 years of college life
yes, i still remember when i read it,
my heart was touching and that quite memorable between us~
that will never change our F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P
even now we still contact each other =)
and might want looking same company together

YES, u are right!
*FOREVER FISH, PENGUIN & CAT LOVE EACH OTHER*
=) (^ @ ^) =)

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this is from munyi's blog - Babe World
almost 2 years din update her blog =P
but her last post is distributed for me also~ =)

November 24, 2008
=D my Birthday!! this is specially for me o~
hehe~ damn Happy when my name on my girlfriends' blog
Proven they never forget me..=P
haha~LOVE ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS MUCH!
MUACKsss~

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this captured from ann's blog - Beyond To Me
its also talking about me~
my Birthday celebration last year~
=)

All those specially for me de..
=) i G.L.A.D to know all my Girlfriends much~
because of them i feel i am happiness in friendship =D
i believe that**
OUR F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P WILL KEEP IT FOREVER UNTIL THE WORLD END!!
MUACKSSSsss

END MY WORK IN SHOJIKIYA

Finally yesterday end it!
10days is suffering and tiring that i long time never feel like this!

Choya and Collagen~please go away!
cause i damn bored keep introduced people that..
repeat + repeating + repeated
damn crazy already~=P

it is a small fair in The Gardens LG Floor,
Just only 4 staff + leader + in charge person
during this fair, i knew Bou, Halle and May
=) =) =)

just don't know why i felt tired and bored on this job~
perhaps i already worked there around 1 and half year..
and the working hours are damn long!
wake up, working, back home~
every same routine made me hate my life..
because it is such life without coloring!
well, my permanent job would not over 8 hours a day!
if sometime overtime maybe acceptable but NOT EVERYDAY!
(O_*) =P


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However, i very happy he is beside me in my this suffering working days~
10 days, he always by my side gave me happy and relax..
non-stop messaging in every morning until night~
sometime encourage me, sometime bully me..
countdown -ing my working days..sometime very touched~
he is very good but i knew myself not like him enough,
shall i respond anything for him?
there is no an answer anyone can suggest for me~

when a day i decide go back there,
maybe it is meaning i am preparing together with him!
but is he still waiting me? No confidence~

but now, i know i feel strongly to STOP WAITING!!
i really felt bored with it!
even he has message me when i am tiring in work,
but it not everyday as the guy accompany me everyday~
i knew i love this guy more than the person waiting me..
but WAITING is extremely tired n bored!
sometime i really don't know how to well communicate with him..
we are not as like last time so happy and care..
COOL is between us~
LOVE is trying to STOP!

A FRIEND

I am so surprised just now, because a friend called me.
A friend,
very long time never contact me.
only my birthday will msg me to wished me,
but i never send any regard in his birthday since we stop our complicated relationship.
i am bad girl or cruel? perhaps, i am!

2 years ago, due to the English course we knew each other.
i really felt sweet and i thought i will accept him,
eventually i rejected him, we never become couple!
just now looking back my blogger,
i did post a topic called ' for a stupid' is talking about him.

i am feeling strange when i am talking with him,
having chat with him artificially.
i can feeling he changed a bit, at least mature than last time,
he also felt me changed.
just feeling artificially with him. 2 years, changed us a lot.

i keep asking him why suddenly call me,
we exchanged how about us recently,
then he say may be go to find me have a lunch together?
he is 3rd person said want find me when i work in The Gardens,
i think if ann, wen and mimi are reading this post maybe know who i am talking.

sorry, i really dun know how to handle and facing to those who i rejected their chased.
i should stand liberality to treat him,
yes, i do learn now, forget all past unhappy memories.
trying my best!

i am waiting someone, but he seem like dun know or dun wanna know?!
honestly, few guys around me i also just ignore them,
perhaps i no feel with them. or perhaps i am waiting someone.
but how long i want to wait? its really unpredictable!

*[* it takes a minute to have a crash on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone *]*
yes, a bit crash by another person now,
but i understand i am waiting someone also.
how someone want i dun know. i also scare to know and ask.
everything just stop at here and remain unchanged.

sorry, 'flower heart' might be appearing on your brain if u r reading this now.

DECIDE NOW & LATER

sitting on the floor and thinking~
where is my direction and future?
yes, who r my best friend sure know what i strongly wan right now..

i decide not continue study now,
perhaps, may continue after half years or a years.
i decide to depart away from KL..
i would not like to stay here already..
i hope i can go other places to try the different life and environments

my sis in law asked me to joining the cruise,
but i believe that is a tough job and life if i joined it now.
i'm not enough qualified going to cruise ship right now,
so i promised myself, after 2 years may go to either cruise ship or Australia.
this was my dream~

well, now i have to find some part time job,
after that only decide when going to outstate.
yes, i am looking to have a job at Cameron Highland which under YTL Company.
i asked howie, mimi and wen interesting with it or not?
they said yes, go together~
howie asked me when i wanna ask PLR's HR..
i think we go after convo is better?
anyway, i will follow up this and waiting Michael help me ask~
i hope we really can go to same places or company together..
i also hope this my desired can be achieve~=)

A SPECIAL PERSON =)

today this post specially for a person~
yes, i know he will not read this because he totally dun know i always blogging..=P
but just wanna write for him!

he is my friend who i really like to have a fun with him~
sometime he very bad but sometime he treat me very good..
treat me good until i feel a little bit touching~
actually i very clear he always acting very bad and bully me,
but he is very good and kindly!

just now having chat with him, i felt sorry with him..
because i din believe and beside him when he is hurting by people..
he really broke up with his girlfriend..
last few days when he told me but i thought he is kidding..
it really unbelievable they broke up already..
its not because they very love each other and their relation is very deep so i dun believe him..
anyway, i felt sorry when just now confirmed he really became single..but this few days din sms with him~

yes, i did beside him and console him.. but promised, what i said is faithfully from my heart..
i told him i haven discover what he bad, as what i know is he is very kind, good, cute..
but i also tell him truly, his always cant say nice words..always gek sei ppl..haha~
yes, i did sayang him because he is my best friend..
he protect me, because he said if the person inside my heart bully me den must tell him!
lolx..so cute..definitely i also wan protect him..
well, i would treat him gentle and good..start from now~
my best friend in PLR~Pan Tze Heng=)

271212

THE END OF THE WORLD~

now is 240410, if 271212 really is the end of the world,
it is meaning we left 2 years 8 months and 3 days~
wow~is it still have a long time?!

what we gonna do to save our earth?!
as i think, no matter what we are doing now for save the earth,
it is already too late!!
since we are in this world, we need to protect it!
we love each other especially everything around us~

i so sad when i am reading the newspaper..
earthquake, tsunami, volcanic eruption..
it was happened in this 2 years!
the most seriously is this year 2010~
a lot of people that we cant counting by fingers were death in this natural disaster..
i feel extremely sad because they are very pity!
is he done everything?
is she achieved her dream?
No Answer!

The conclusion is, we should appreciate everything we are having now.
we should do any legal things we wan in order to avoid regretful.
we should holding every chance people are giving for us.
we should try any freshness things in our life.
we should treat each other with our faithful and fully love.
we should try and do our best to achieve our target.
then, shall i do whatever i wan now?
shall i tell him what i am thinking now?
shall i move away from here now?
can we breath after 281212?
No Answer!

K TIME AGAIN!!

today went sing k with ann, meikee, josh, jason and jing feng~

started 2pm to 7pm..my godness~my throat is paining right now!
huh~

huh~when my cup of tea appear??

hehe~after k time den went to Ss2 a Korean Restaurant~Seo Gung!!
had our dinner there~

me with my babe ann~

yupe!! 6 of us hang out today!!*** miss miss miss ***
i mIsss misss misss everyone in PLR~
a bright mOOn and stars!! sigh.. star is in front of me!! muackss~

GET LOSE

what the main reason i wan to write here? even myself also dun know.
just feeling like wanna update my blog due that something inside my heart..
feeling down right now...myself dun even know what's up..
howwwwwwwwwww??

i feel strange of myself? or i scare to facing myself? isssshhhh!!
1st, i got no direction either wan continue study or work..
that is a decision to influence my future..i ever talked this topic with my friends..
however still cant get conclusion..

well, im looking hospitality industry under YTL Company, only realized PLR seem like the best..
7 restaurants in a resort..many types of rooms..
wanna go bk there to get a job?.... NO,but i hope so!many people r over there..i dun wanna go back there..and gossip is the most make people scary in that island..but i very happy at there..a sweet memories and happiness are there..if i go back there, i believe all my friends there are welcoming me..like Heng also asked me go back..
the stupid gossip is the most reason block me wanna go back there~
well,Tanjung Jara is not bad geh..huh!dun noe ahhh..
i know i would not like to stay in KL since i experience to overstate.
honestly, i feel like wanna away from KL..
nvm, time to ask my best fren in PLR!later~

2nd..i really never understand him..its mine problem or him?
actually i know we impossible and we are not suitable..
but why we still wan continue to contact each other?
yes, i did wait anything happen after i came back from Pangkor..
however everything now is not what i expected!
since when u ald influence my mood?
what u wan what u dun wan i really confused!
what...dun noe how to continue ald..update again next time la..

HAVE FUN WITH FRIENDS

short sentences~have fun with them..
wen,mimi,howie and michael~

after hang in report den went to Chili restaurant had brunch~

3 of us again!!

miss them much!!

in green box~after k den its time take pictures!

AWAKEN FROM THE DREAM

10 weeks dream at island was ended on Monday.
now, i regression to my own life again!
but i know that i will not forget every moment even i awaken from my dream..
That is a reason why i would like to take my time to record down my best memories into blogger.
there is no denying it, time is running day by day and non-stop. its made my 10 weeks internship end so fast and dun even feel that,i really away from the island..

the most happy and nice memories are came from i met some friends in the island..
bcos of them, my life became more wonderful and colorful without any bored.
its really a perfect experience i gain from there, One island One resort!
i will never forget the dazzling of the sunset~

the guests Mr and Mrs Vinex who gave me more lucky and confidence during my working..
they are 1st guests i wanna talk a lot with them and cos me is there so their 5 days 4 nites trip oso had dinner in Uncle Lim. when they check out, i also went to jetty sent them with a small souvenir i gift them. the 1st day they in Uncle Lim, they told to my manager im ambassador of the restaurant..thx anyway!=)

well, who i can remember their name and have a good image in my heart are:
*Jessie,a HR trainee, 1st person i met in PLR.....
*'ah gic'- Mr philip, uncle lim manager who very scare us gic him and we do so he will automatic said his own word
*Mr Mike who very friend with me and we share alot of secret for each other,
*Chef jian wei who brought me went to see turtle and have a heart talk with me,
*heng who very romantic and like to joking and bully me,but i touched by him cos he drawn a star on my hand under the stars sky in loading bay..
*John, who call me yang wa wa..i still can remember last day farewell, u chase me and wanna gic me until i sat on the beach..lolx~
*Joffrey and Joy~Zaw who like the moon and i like stars..zar nee who very kind but sometime i cant understand wat she talking about..and few chef treat me very very well~
TQ DEEPLY MUCH! MISS YOU ALL MUCH MUCH!


honestly, i cant get used to the life here now with the sound and air pollution. but i very happy im in city here bcos the weather is much warmer than island, and here got cinemas and shopping center. its time to stop here 1st, may continue update after i hang in report!
sitting Starbucks in Pavilion waiting buddies go to dinner right now..goodbye~

LAST DAY IN CHAPMAN'S BAR~

last day in Chapman's bar..i really like here..especially staff and manger and chef also..
used to it environment..tis day oso last day Mr.Endri in Pangkor Laut..now..he als left here..
tat day he admit me is his gf..hah~me very happy!!n hug me oso~=P
he really a good manager i have!i like him n miss him much!!
nth special in my last day there..quite boring..cos no busy..
den i ordered burger to eat!!delicious..but it quite big..very full..
den i took picture with them and picture at there as my memory~

me with Midah

Captain~Suheri~

DANNY BOY~

lolx~its time to upload this post~
i met a friend here~Danny...he is YTL student..the only one who very good with us in this batch~
he went bk on monday ald~cos he ald finished his 4 months internship in Pangkor Laut..
wao~he be our leader in the special lunch..
i think since that, we everynite oso out for dinner..almost la~
tat day we all very down also included him..
so nice to meet him..bt..bcos he very gd with us, so his college friends dun like him..
hw even worse is where they out and have lunch in resort be4 they bk oso never call him..
i noe that feeling!!its quite sad!this was the sadness he get in his 4 months internship!
i really wan say thx and appreciated him..bcos he noe we desire to eat KFC,MCD,and pizza..so, he bought KFC for us in last day!!honestly..when me went bk to room and saw it den felt surprise and happy..may,yeen and me hug each other!!cos too happy no nid eat cafeteria food.
how kind he is..and we promised,after a week we went bk to KL, we go to watch movie, shopping together..finger print di..=)
cu again guy~

the most delicious KFC!

sa lao and my cat~

last day we went out had our dinner and ice-cream!

WHY I BECAME MORE WEAKNESS?

how come i became more weakness?im strong babe izzit?
promised munyi wan become strong..why i still weak?
cried yesterday..and so late oni sleep ytd.
i oso dun know why~maybe after drink den a way to vent everything..
i so sad to heard again..aichin called them out for dinner due her bf came..but she never msg me n ask me out again!deeply disappointed!even jiahui oso never ask me!
how i hurt?!i really dun know how?!
den ytd few of us oso unhappy..den i sit at pondok and look at stars..
my cat(May) kept console me..after cried and relax..den i started 38 n sang song..
thx all my frens..edison oso came to chat with me~
actually not just only their problem..dun know what is de main reasons la..
then i keep crying ytd..ys oso unhappy, May oso,danny oso~
den all join geter and 38 until very late~
tats y today very tird n sleepy during work..
Oppss..May dun know i promised Mike i will sleep early..so tat today when Mike knw me sleep at 3am+ then look at me and~hehe=P
everyone oso asked me to be strong.i hope the next few weeks will not nth happened again..

GOODBYE MR.ENDRI~

last time i posted,i already changed to new outlet which is called chapman's bar.
it is located in emerald bay which is our beach in this island..
Mr.Endri is a manager in Emerald Bay and also Chapman's Bar.
Oppss..not take picture at there yet~Monday will be the last day at there.
back to my title..Mr.Endri..today is last day he at there..he is the most lengzai among those manager..=P..but Mr Mike still the 1st in my heart..hehe~
1st day i went to Chapman's Bar alone, i feel strange b'cos that was 1sst time.
so, Mr. Endri brought me walked around and introduced everything and what is available at emerald bay. after that, he started to teach me menu items. He really explained very detail and taught me alot!how to serve guests in proper ways,how to take order clearly,how to be confidence and so on..how good a manager i have.i like him so much!however, he want resign..=(

yesterday nite, we went to Pulau Pangkor and had dinner with him..all chapman's bar members..
and our F&B manager and assistant manager.3 tables..a farewell,and welcome with birthday celebration.but the main is farewell Endri~
so touched with it~and i oso drink~i really hmg se dak him..even though im juz know him 2weeks oni..but he is a good and talent manager.

took it today be4 he bk..he said this was last time he wear the uniform,he wan go bk now and change~

a manager who i learned alot from him..my lengzai manager~i like his smile!very cute and sweet~say Goodbye to Mr.Endri!