A FRIEND

I am so surprised just now, because a friend called me.
A friend,
very long time never contact me.
only my birthday will msg me to wished me,
but i never send any regard in his birthday since we stop our complicated relationship.
i am bad girl or cruel? perhaps, i am!

2 years ago, due to the English course we knew each other.
i really felt sweet and i thought i will accept him,
eventually i rejected him, we never become couple!
just now looking back my blogger,
i did post a topic called ' for a stupid' is talking about him.

i am feeling strange when i am talking with him,
having chat with him artificially.
i can feeling he changed a bit, at least mature than last time,
he also felt me changed.
just feeling artificially with him. 2 years, changed us a lot.

i keep asking him why suddenly call me,
we exchanged how about us recently,
then he say may be go to find me have a lunch together?
he is 3rd person said want find me when i work in The Gardens,
i think if ann, wen and mimi are reading this post maybe know who i am talking.

sorry, i really dun know how to handle and facing to those who i rejected their chased.
i should stand liberality to treat him,
yes, i do learn now, forget all past unhappy memories.
trying my best!

i am waiting someone, but he seem like dun know or dun wanna know?!
honestly, few guys around me i also just ignore them,
perhaps i no feel with them. or perhaps i am waiting someone.
but how long i want to wait? its really unpredictable!

*[* it takes a minute to have a crash on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone *]*
yes, a bit crash by another person now,
but i understand i am waiting someone also.
how someone want i dun know. i also scare to know and ask.
everything just stop at here and remain unchanged.

sorry, 'flower heart' might be appearing on your brain if u r reading this now.