wawah is listening this song...
she is keep replaying this song..
she is thinking n understanding this song...
she is feeling the lyric of this song..
this song is the most suit her right now..
lyric:

为什么爱会 下起雨来
为什么我们 越走越散
为什么笑有 点不自然
为什么 我的爱 有点不安

眼泪排山倒海
再抵挡不了伤害
我们的爱结束在这个夜晚

春夏冬暖 多需要有你的陪伴
此刻我一个人习惯 孤单

爱最痛的呼喊
是不能够再重来
多年后我却牢牢记在脑海

幸福再来 我依然会充满期待
找回爱最初的幸福港湾

眼泪排山倒海
再抵挡不了伤害
我们的 爱结束在这个夜晚

快乐太难 太心酸 我才发现了孤单
原来 爱情真那么难
原来 爱情那么难

BIG BIG DAY ** CONVOCATION

1stly i am going to announce THANK YOU to my parents!
all of them have been supported me so much!
without them, without me!
千言万语 ，但最重要的还是谢谢！

*convocation*
a big big day and experience to wear gown, stepped to stage..
is a classical day to save in memory!
24/7/2010

after came out from hall, im going to meet my dady and sister..
hehe~ get a bouquet of flower from them..
and my jiefu..give me a bear bear..
thx so muzzzzz! =D

thx ann's parents help me take picture too..
hehe~ love ann so much!!
nobody can instead u!! XD
then take some photo with mimi, wen, howie and darren..
love them much too!! thx mimi's mum gave a small ferreror..
=) like it!!

Thank you to heng zai, ng poh song, josh tham, joe tan and daphanne!!
they came to our convo and gave me and ann a bouquet of fererror rocher each!!
wuhoo~ like it!!
i really really appreciate have u guys being my buddies!!
only u, only urs treat me very very good!!
hehe~ =)

and thank you josh helped us captured a lot of photos..
ur skill were improving!!
jiayou brother!! =)
that Jason ffk!! herng!! must makan hou liao!! XD

after that, went out with buddies..
have sushi in sushi zen at The Gardens
then we went to Tropicana City watch movie..
**Sorcerer's Apprentice**
a nice movie..
at nite with going midnight..
we went to i-city to took a lot of photos..
a part of our memory!
=) really really a nice city..
if u go with bf or gf, it would more awesome!!
=) =D =)

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my thought:
2years really gone fast, we end our diploma life in tarc!!
but im still progressing my advance diploma life..
the life in diploma is much happy compare than now!!
a lot of happiness life and laughing, memories we had together!
but all of this didn't come back anymore and more!!
well..convo should be happy rite?
but actually i not so~
huh~ i tired for everything right now!
im facing what problem just can solve it by myself silently..
this week really really bad to me..
no matter my body, schoolwork, or some even love..
present no good, body not feeling well, love going lose..
somehow i extremely feel like wanna back to Pangkor..
there is my safe habour..i can relax and enjoy at there..
get happy with all of them!! im missing them extremely!
why everytime when i down, sad, unhappy, got problem always wanna go to Pangkor?!
i really hope i can go to vacation alone now!!
throw away assignments, presentation and those frustration things!
but i very clear that i cant!
well..no journey, then now just a way for me to solve is cry..
crying just can make me vent out all of that!
sorry..that just a kidding..never wan to argue with u..
sorry..

♥♥ WHAT IS GOING TO ♥♥

♥♥ what will it going to between us ♥♥
this topic is talking about l.o.v.e~
i never talk about my love in this public blog
because i no love? lolx..
up to what u would like to think..
L.O.V.E
is a combining of 4 alphabets XD
it looks very easy spelling and easy going,
but its a heavy job come over to us

L.O.V.E ♥♥
is not a simple word!
Love come with promise..
promise come with life..
lolx..i dun know what am writing...haha=P

well~ what is coming to me and going to our future?
he said got feeling then..(i nvr imagine the day came over to me)
but we never and haven start..
our feeling is still progressing and not reaches to l.o.v.e
love is heavy until we dun wanna to give any promises to each other..
just maintaining this ambiguous relationship~
i dun wanna ask and touch the topic..this is my style..

somehow i feel extremely out with sense of secure
why why why?
the stupid nightmare!! i hate u!!
please don't make it come over to my life!!
might be i dun think what u said r truly..
might be i not trust u enough..
might be we still have long way to going..
but human is very greedy..
i satisfied what we possess now..♥♥♥
but how long n far it will longer to satisfied me?
i am confusing and not sure~

we dun go for deeply is fine,
but sometime i hope he show more gently to me..
i know he sayang me but he not always like to tell me..
he din tell me then how i interpretation his action?!
just feel it? how if i think too much?misunderstanding it?
lolx.. confusing ♥♥♥♥♥

come on guy! if u tell me clearly then i will not think in negative way!
please show me ur romantic (i know u don't have romantic cells!!)
please learn it! XO
♥♥♥
sometime i would like to think to give u romantic,
but...hesitating to take action..hehe!
no worries, your bufday..hehe~ if we still can going to tat far..
den my romantic cells will going for u to make u touch..♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥
hehe XD =) =D

end up of this topic..
♥♥♥ everything is invariability ♥♥♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BABE ANN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

yesterday we celebrated ann's birthday(sorry for late a day ya!!)
The Ship at Petaling Jaya have dinner together!
Ladies : Ann * Munyi * Puimun * Mickey * Me * Cheali * Daphne
Gentlemen : Pohsong * Joe* Shihan * Kokweng * Josh * Jason

after our dinner, then its time to shooting photos~
so funny is many of us also bring camera,
so when we requested staff help us take full attendance photo,
his hand is holding around 5 cameras...lolx~
then we kept take ugly and nice photos! =)
its quite enjoying to be with all of them!
especially all my girlfriends!!

shifting to 2nd round~
after discussion then we shifted to puimun's dad 's pub in Bangsar
quite silent in the pub yesterday...
after sit awhile den we shifted to Starbuck Coffee to have Ann's birthday cake
cause Josh and Jason only joined us in 2nd round
its quite simple and a lil boring
(sorry babe ann)
after finished our cake then we decide go back home
=[ =[ =[ ]= ]= ]=

heading to 3rd round:
me, Ann, Josh and Jason in a car on the way we're going back home
received meikee's msg said didn't drink..
lolx~4 of our reaction are let's jom to drink la!!
haha! i feel we are same type..always say ON without any plan before
then we went to "Germany Beer" at Manjalara to drink
Ann * Meikee * Me * Jason * Josh
5 of us order cocktail and beer~
wihhwirr~ 1st tried haegarden beer!!me and Jason ordered this drink~
Ann ordered sex on the beach * meikee - Margarita * Josh - Bloody Mary
i appreciate the time we relax and enjoy
=) =) =)
around coming 3am only we went back home..
the celebration day was end!

Last but not least
Ann, Happy birthday!!

OUTBAC - BROGA HILL

wow~
we are just coming back from the course trip
** OUTBAC - Broga Hill **
** 2 days 1 night trip **

OUTBAC = Outdoor * Team Building * Adventure Camp
How fun it was?
90% fun and challenges!
if included BBQ it would be perfect!! =)

totally have 5 stations we went to
those activities available in OUTBAC :
Low Ropes Course, High wall and Leapard'd Crawl,
Obstacle Course, Spider's web, Nitro Crossing,
whale watch, crocodile pit, giant's finger,
flying fox, rock climbing, leap of faith,
kayak and mountain bike...

almost all activities we played in this 2 days
2nd morning, we assembly at 5.30am to climb the broga hill
we decide to climb to last pick (totally 4 picks),
but we didn't eventually. =P
because after climbed to 1st pick just realized that it a lil tough
but after discussion we still support our 1st decision to climb,
but they are not recommend us climb to last pick due to drizzling
when we walk down from the mountain, its freaking tough job for me!
because i got no more energy and i scare about the predict!
and the last game damn fun!!
although whole body wet but its really fun and achievability
although we are not same group with our previous team we also can cooperate!

my thought:
i never regret i went to this trip!
it was freaking fun!
the most i like is the flying fox game!
and i very happy to be with my team members!
i don't know how people think our team, but in this 2 days,
we same team and done the jobs together especially the spider's web!
(just realized that, we did very very well and all male in our team r MAN!!)
we encourage each other,we help each other!!
and thank you to you guy who ever help me =)
and thank you hold me to went down from Broga Hill =)
we achieved Team Effective!! =)
i also want to thanx someone asked me bkful and jiayou~
(if you read my blog den u will know im talking to you, but i don't think u have read. =P)
**wink wink**
thanx everybody!!

What is our Vision?
** W .I N **
What is our Mission?
** W.I.N **
What is our Goal?
** W.I.N W.I.N W.I.N **
=) =)=)
although we are not the champion, but we did well!
and we get 2 area reward!
'i wan nobody no body but you' =P
kaka~ reward is not the aim
the aim is TEAM BUILDING with EFFECTIVENESS!
** clap - plaplapla** clap- plaplapla **

IT WOULDN'T COME BACK ANYMORE

Full attendance!

the S.M.I.L.E.S are truly, never cheat anyone~

10 of us is another story started!

5 girls ever have same memories!

what you are thinking about right now?
pass 2 years we gone through together!

but how about now?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P is just a noun,
how it's work so long?
actually it just as weak as if we wanna stop it~
is like a glass, easy to break!

Apart from it, i do apologize in girls relationship,
its my fault but its truth i break for it.
i really cant stand for that.
anyway, its my apologize now.. silently~

2 years we went together and help each others,
it was like a train is working go at express speed everyday.
it never stop with any reason *nod nod*

S.I.G.H,
the F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P. was stop now!
it WOULD NOT come back anymore!
gathering will never full attendance,
laughing will not as loud as last time,
seats will not need much anymore,
it just only few person really look it as friendship!
diploma in college's friendship is time put full stop!!

**head shaking**

DATING 1, 2 ,3 XD

Dating Episode 1 ♥

Went to Look Out Point!!
hooyeah~ with lovely wen, mimi, howie and darren!
have fun!! no matter in the car on the way going or sitting there to have dinner..
one to ensure that, Howie never never think we celebrate his birthday!
21 years old birthday leh!! hope he get surprise and happy although it just a simple celebration and only few of us together. =)

weeiii, have a happy talked with them during that day!
mimi and howie stayed together with us in our wangsa sweet home.. XP
Nice girls and boys! damn happy with that!!
its really make me forgot unhappy staff!!
♥ love ♥

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Dating Episode 2 ♥

went to KLCC with babe Ann =)
quite long time din c her also..
babe treated me dinner at San Francisco Restaurant!
=) ^^ =)
thx babe! have a nice movie with u also!!
=)

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Dating Episode 3 ♥

Finally i met up my buddies!
yesterday went to Sri Rampai Chatz room cafe!
finally get drunk due the game!!
Ann, Mun, Meikee, and Josh!!
♥ love ya!!♥

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Extra Dating Last Episode ♥

1. went to watch my 1st Worldcup show with dickson, his friends, Ks, and Owen..
2. went to watch movie 'Karate Kid' with wen and Gm after class. (1st time went to wangsa walk)
3. met up mimi in KLCC have a small gathering last Sunday!!
4. played badminton with my housemate Joe, Owne, Lider, Dickson and wen (sheng min and another housemate joined in dinner) !!

♥ Love all ♥

I'M WEAK!

Eventually,
i also cant managed my feeling well,
i'm trying to control but the result is showing uncontrolled!
tear drops when i saw it in fb again.
tear drops when i'm alone again!
Y.E.S!! I'M W.E.A.K!

as mimi said, i really need to let myself drunk,
might it really can let me vent out for everything.
i told it out but still also cant solve the problem.
why must be like this?
why i cant and don't want give up now?
i really hope to tell you:
please stop to treat me gently!
If you really like the girl then should stop to treat other girls gently
because its just hurting people only!
especially me!!

Looking at the blue sky, asking the god
can you give me answer?
the sky still remain blue colour,
and me never get an answer!

I'M HERE

Finally i can on9 lor~
wawah is here..=)

last posted was talking about whether wanna continue study or not,
now, i made decision and studying now..
it really a harder way i'm going now.

will i regret to choose this way?
hopefully NO.. =X
however, quite lonely in college, only wen and me.
miss mimi and howie badly!!
i hope they are still around us!!
NEVER leave us alone..='(

me and wen moved to wangsa metroview..
hope the different life make my life more wonderful!!
moved out den should keep money, cant spend so much anymore..
siao..siao..XD

this year have 3 classes, im H3.
combination of H10-H13 in diploma classes last year..
getting friend with Dickson, and Nicole they all.. =)
hope we are going together in this 2 years!!
muackss~

* Sorry to my buddies, recently really quite busy and have to settle up everything..
this a reason i kept refuse go out meet u guys~*

SHALL I?

what i am frustrating now is whether i go further study or work?

my great decision was influencing my future~

Is time to work and earn money right now?
or go 1 more year study only out for work?
it's really hard for me to make decision!

i Love college life,
i Love study,
i Love book.
But, it doesn't mean anything right?
huh~i H.A.T.E myself!!
why i always cant make a good decision by myself?
kept asking opinions from people.
O.O
Apa Saya Nak?

i thought i already make a good decision last time,
but now vacillate by my friends!
=.="' H.A.T.E!!

then called to my aunt and have above half hour chat,
i haven say anything then she already ask me study.
she said nowadays everywhere also can get diploma student,
if can then study more.
huh~keep repeating same topic!
she asked me don't think about degree cert in LiverPool 1st,
go for advance diploma, at least better than diploma..
she hope can heard my good news > continue study..
she asked me let her know my decision. =.="' lolx..
Anyway, muz thx her encourage and analyze with me.

NOW, what i wan? i afraid going alone!!it says honestly!
=P really afraid exam, and going study alone.
BUT, i damn like EVENT!! its quite challenge and funs!!

GOD, what i can do with it?
work? study? work? study?
if work then i will choose try work at wisma genting.
sounds good of this company..
can get a lot knowledge because the training is providing~

huh~no matter what, i also cant get a conclusion!!
USELESS wawahfish!!
='(

TOUCHED BY MY GIRLFRIENDS

Suppose update this early, but now only feeling free to post~

my life is full of love from my girlfriends..
Ann, Munyi, Pei Wen, Mimi, Puimun, Cheali and Meikee as well

this is from mimi's blog - ❤ Love is Unpredictable ❤
Mimi wrote this is specially distributed for me =)
all memories about me, wen with her in our 2 years of college life
yes, i still remember when i read it,
my heart was touching and that quite memorable between us~
that will never change our F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P
even now we still contact each other =)
and might want looking same company together

YES, u are right!
*FOREVER FISH, PENGUIN & CAT LOVE EACH OTHER*
=) (^ @ ^) =)

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this is from munyi's blog - Babe World
almost 2 years din update her blog =P
but her last post is distributed for me also~ =)

November 24, 2008
=D my Birthday!! this is specially for me o~
hehe~ damn Happy when my name on my girlfriends' blog
Proven they never forget me..=P
haha~LOVE ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS MUCH!
MUACKsss~

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this captured from ann's blog - Beyond To Me
its also talking about me~
my Birthday celebration last year~
=)

All those specially for me de..
=) i G.L.A.D to know all my Girlfriends much~
because of them i feel i am happiness in friendship =D
i believe that**
OUR F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P WILL KEEP IT FOREVER UNTIL THE WORLD END!!
MUACKSSSsss

END MY WORK IN SHOJIKIYA

Finally yesterday end it!
10days is suffering and tiring that i long time never feel like this!

Choya and Collagen~please go away!
cause i damn bored keep introduced people that..
repeat + repeating + repeated
damn crazy already~=P

it is a small fair in The Gardens LG Floor,
Just only 4 staff + leader + in charge person
during this fair, i knew Bou, Halle and May
=) =) =)

just don't know why i felt tired and bored on this job~
perhaps i already worked there around 1 and half year..
and the working hours are damn long!
wake up, working, back home~
every same routine made me hate my life..
because it is such life without coloring!
well, my permanent job would not over 8 hours a day!
if sometime overtime maybe acceptable but NOT EVERYDAY!
(O_*) =P


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However, i very happy he is beside me in my this suffering working days~
10 days, he always by my side gave me happy and relax..
non-stop messaging in every morning until night~
sometime encourage me, sometime bully me..
countdown -ing my working days..sometime very touched~
he is very good but i knew myself not like him enough,
shall i respond anything for him?
there is no an answer anyone can suggest for me~

when a day i decide go back there,
maybe it is meaning i am preparing together with him!
but is he still waiting me? No confidence~

but now, i know i feel strongly to STOP WAITING!!
i really felt bored with it!
even he has message me when i am tiring in work,
but it not everyday as the guy accompany me everyday~
i knew i love this guy more than the person waiting me..
but WAITING is extremely tired n bored!
sometime i really don't know how to well communicate with him..
we are not as like last time so happy and care..
COOL is between us~
LOVE is trying to STOP!

A FRIEND

I am so surprised just now, because a friend called me.
A friend,
very long time never contact me.
only my birthday will msg me to wished me,
but i never send any regard in his birthday since we stop our complicated relationship.
i am bad girl or cruel? perhaps, i am!

2 years ago, due to the English course we knew each other.
i really felt sweet and i thought i will accept him,
eventually i rejected him, we never become couple!
just now looking back my blogger,
i did post a topic called ' for a stupid' is talking about him.

i am feeling strange when i am talking with him,
having chat with him artificially.
i can feeling he changed a bit, at least mature than last time,
he also felt me changed.
just feeling artificially with him. 2 years, changed us a lot.

i keep asking him why suddenly call me,
we exchanged how about us recently,
then he say may be go to find me have a lunch together?
he is 3rd person said want find me when i work in The Gardens,
i think if ann, wen and mimi are reading this post maybe know who i am talking.

sorry, i really dun know how to handle and facing to those who i rejected their chased.
i should stand liberality to treat him,
yes, i do learn now, forget all past unhappy memories.
trying my best!

i am waiting someone, but he seem like dun know or dun wanna know?!
honestly, few guys around me i also just ignore them,
perhaps i no feel with them. or perhaps i am waiting someone.
but how long i want to wait? its really unpredictable!

*[* it takes a minute to have a crash on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone *]*
yes, a bit crash by another person now,
but i understand i am waiting someone also.
how someone want i dun know. i also scare to know and ask.
everything just stop at here and remain unchanged.

sorry, 'flower heart' might be appearing on your brain if u r reading this now.

DECIDE NOW & LATER

sitting on the floor and thinking~
where is my direction and future?
yes, who r my best friend sure know what i strongly wan right now..

i decide not continue study now,
perhaps, may continue after half years or a years.
i decide to depart away from KL..
i would not like to stay here already..
i hope i can go other places to try the different life and environments

my sis in law asked me to joining the cruise,
but i believe that is a tough job and life if i joined it now.
i'm not enough qualified going to cruise ship right now,
so i promised myself, after 2 years may go to either cruise ship or Australia.
this was my dream~

well, now i have to find some part time job,
after that only decide when going to outstate.
yes, i am looking to have a job at Cameron Highland which under YTL Company.
i asked howie, mimi and wen interesting with it or not?
they said yes, go together~
howie asked me when i wanna ask PLR's HR..
i think we go after convo is better?
anyway, i will follow up this and waiting Michael help me ask~
i hope we really can go to same places or company together..
i also hope this my desired can be achieve~=)

A SPECIAL PERSON =)

today this post specially for a person~
yes, i know he will not read this because he totally dun know i always blogging..=P
but just wanna write for him!

he is my friend who i really like to have a fun with him~
sometime he very bad but sometime he treat me very good..
treat me good until i feel a little bit touching~
actually i very clear he always acting very bad and bully me,
but he is very good and kindly!

just now having chat with him, i felt sorry with him..
because i din believe and beside him when he is hurting by people..
he really broke up with his girlfriend..
last few days when he told me but i thought he is kidding..
it really unbelievable they broke up already..
its not because they very love each other and their relation is very deep so i dun believe him..
anyway, i felt sorry when just now confirmed he really became single..but this few days din sms with him~

yes, i did beside him and console him.. but promised, what i said is faithfully from my heart..
i told him i haven discover what he bad, as what i know is he is very kind, good, cute..
but i also tell him truly, his always cant say nice words..always gek sei ppl..haha~
yes, i did sayang him because he is my best friend..
he protect me, because he said if the person inside my heart bully me den must tell him!
lolx..so cute..definitely i also wan protect him..
well, i would treat him gentle and good..start from now~
my best friend in PLR~Pan Tze Heng=)